Hope for our Hopes
Category: Filipino Nurses, Nurses’ Careers, Striving Pinoy Nurses, Posted on November 3rd, 2009 by adminNo Comments
It’s just like a few months ago when I was greeting everyone a happy new year and now some are already greeting me an advance merry Christmas. Sometimes we tend to care less of time and later on realize that the year is coming close to its end. It’s the “ber” months once again and radio stations are starting to play Christmas carols and stores are starting to sell Christmas items. I don’t know why, but it depresses me to hear these things. Perhaps Christmas really is for kids or people who have something to look forward to during that day or the coming year.
Last year I and my closest friends were so much hopeful that something good will happen to our careers this year but our hopes failed and our luck stayed frigid as always. As nurses, we’ve always wanted to work abroad and of course we did everything to realize that desire. Just the other day we met at one of our friend’s house like what we often do; just talking and checking on anyone’s progress if there is. But sadly we’re still standing on the same grounds: the grounds of nothingness. Talking about the “ber” months made us shiver not because of the winter season but because the year’s end is coming and our careers remained fruitlessly languid—worst, we’re getting older. Funny how the carol says “you better watch out, you better not cry, you better not pout, I’m telling you why; Santa Claus is coming to town”—-never mind Santa, we all want to do otherwise.
To kick the melancholy aside, we laughed our depression out over bottles of beer and noisy singing and dancing. But still amidst our drunken revelry are our suppressed feelings looming like nightmares that refuse to get lost. And after indulging ourselves in oblivion our worries surge like impetuous waves that slap us back to reality. The fun’s over; what now?